Finding Me

So I sit here feeling disposed

Like this me isn't me

Feel like I'm trying to conform

to what "HE" and "SHE" wants me to be

Hiding all theses feelings

Feeling like I'm hiding

Moving in new directions

My spirit inside is crying

Seem like sin has become my best friend

Like I've done a 360

and found the old "Ashley" again

Who's to say that she isn't me?

Maybe this whole time this "NEW ME"

Is who I was pretending to be

Lots of miles and space

I travel to find a new place

Hoping this space

Will erase those bad memories I've traced

So I sit here feeling disposed

Although no one truly knows

I put on this smile daily

Like I put on my clothes

I drink up this life

Like my morning cup of tea

Wondering all the while"WHO IS SHE?"

I'm still finding me

Finding where I'm suppose to be

I'll travel these miles

Just to get close to being free